another week passed. left with one and half week to promo.

i'm very excited over going back to home, the kind of excitement never experienced in the past two years. last year and the year before i just felt nothing about going home. it's like a routine for me or my parents will not be happy. but this time, i'm so eager to see them and spend time with them!

yucks, but im a bit worried. i worry about putting on a mask again in front of my ex-classmates and teachers. i've changed so much, not physically but psychologically, yet they still think i'm the old me. what shall i behave then? luckily most of my exclassmates are in universities in other cities. but then i'll have no one to talk to and play when i go back. and i don't want to see her often. yups, just stay at home lor. anyway my home is at the suburb.

i'm considering going to my grandparents' house in She Xian, a small county at the foot of Huangshan. very good scenery there. and i've not seen them for three years. i feel i'm the true me there, where the water is clean, mountain is green, sky is blue, cloud is white, and people are nice. that's not a very developed place, not very much disturbed by the outside word. a shi wai tao yuan somehow.

reminds me of shangri-la, yun nan. that's also a nice place. i like the air their. one third less oxygen than normal, but fresh and natural. still remember the kids there, who have to toil over several mountains on their way to school.

i think everyone should go to the underdeveloped places to have a look, then they'll realise how priviledged they are to live such a good life. a pair of adidas shoes can support their 6 years of primary school education, yet every year more than 10 percent of the students there have to quit school, because of no money.

they never had a taste of soft drink in their life. when we bought them the drinks, they gave them back to us during dinner. i felt like to give them everything i had with me, and i almost did. and they also want to leave something for me. a 50 cents coin, renminbi. for that they'll probably have to starve for a day.

why? r they less fortunate than us? maybe yes, maybe no. we've lost many things in order to live a comfortable life, but we just don't know. everyday we complain about this about that, but they just take it easily. they live a simpler life.

while u r using the computer, player ur electric guitar, eating ur Mcdonals's burger, etc, etc, ur money spend otherwise may enable a student in yun nan to complete one year of education. whenever i think of this i feel uneasy.

treasure every enjoyful moment, treasure every opportunity, treasure every cent u have.