haiz.

i've been pissed off by many people, hehez, i'm contemptuous of them, but as time goes by i have to bear with them still.

sadly, many of them prcs. i live with them under one roof, even in the same hall. but i can do nothing, except enduring all their nonsense.

living in the same hostel enables me to scrutinize a person fully, and what do i see? there are more ugliness

hehez, maybe that's also what they see in me.

i've seen people laughint loudly at other's slightest mistakes yet are so ignorant of their own misdeeds

i've seen people thinking so high of themselves that they regard everyone else inferior

i've seen stereotypes and rumours completely ruined one's reputation

i've seen people smiling and flattering u in front of u, and begin maligning u when u turn ur back towards them

i've seen people who regards themselves as the most intelligent in the world, thus blaming all the test failures to misfortunes.

'i'm intelligent, thus i have less effort to put in.' their logic

i've seen people boasting how hard they play, yet stay up to 2 or 3 a.m. for mugging.

i've also seen people who play the whole day, yet scaring people, telling them how late/early they stay to mug.

i'm struck with the hypocrisy.

i booked the air-ticket last year with someone, the same flight,
and the someone called his parents telling them i was not going back.
hehe, cool man!

that's why in hostel, i seldomly speak.
i speak to myself more to anybody else

i'm on the brink of a black hole

i'm afraid i'll slip into it and never get out

出淤泥而不染，濯清莲而不妖。

or maybe, i'm just too sensitive, the world isn't as bad as i perceive....