wednesday got ssef briefing. cannot go tkd.

don't feel like listening to lectures. wanna pon lectures. got sianed doing tutorials. i wanna 堕落.

i imagine someday i fell from the roof, or being knocked down by car. my blood oozing from all over. and i lie there, smiling faintly.

death. sweet death.

when there's a novelty there, people have a feeling mixed with curiosity and apprehension.

now, my fear dominates.

maybe some time later, it's the other way round?