while the ivle is crawling, i just blog here.

four days passed, after the night of sadness. when i woke up in the morning the next day, the wound has healed, at least on the surface. until this morning, i heard they the song for advertising valentine song dedication, i have to close my eys and suppress the surge of something wet from falling out from my eyes.

can't remember the song name, nor the lyrics. wanna be ur friend? that's the way. everything seems to be ok, until at some moment, all out of a sudden, the memories, regrets and etc overcome ur whole body and mind.

yups, this friday is international friendship day.

the heaven is fair. it takes sth from u, it will surly give sth back. what has heaven given me? time. i can do the things i like. i wish the heaven can take some time from me and give me a love.

maybe, the request is too demanding for the heaven.

in a person's life, he'll meet a several people he likes. but he may just missed most of them.

at least i tried to let her know, although it's too early? or too late? bad timing.

i've done all wat i can afford to do; but i didn't do whatever i can do.

someone told me that she is just too nice a girl, very shan liang; she ought to belong to everyone of us.

i'm just too selfish wanting to make her my own.

time passed.

i fear.

i'm behaving normal to everyone, except her.

never spoke to her since this week.

wanna smile to her, but don't know how.

myself sux.

i can't leave us to drift far and far away. the gravitational force is just too weak to counter the repulsive forces.

wat shall i do?

i want an anchor to stop me from moving, before i can find her path and decide wat i can do.

i really really hope, we can remain as friends, true friends, not those kind of friends who merely nod and say hello to each other when they meet each other.