i have a dream...

according to brightsparks, one year expense (median) studying in UK =350,000 RMB
in US =330,000 RMB
according to oxford website, one year expense (whole year on campus) =425,000 RMB

Why do i want to apply for US and UK!!!!????!!!

I'm very tempted to put down financial aid on my US applications. that may slash my possibility of admission by more than half. but who cares? if i don't put down, even if i got admitted i won't afford that kind of education.

我不想让家里举债供我读书。那不仅是我父亲母亲的血汗钱，还是他们透支未来的钱哪！！！
申请新加坡的奖学金？难道我今生今世就做不了中国人？
我应该老老实实读NUS了？
我后悔来新加坡，如果没来，又怎么会受这样的煎熬？