In BT

有点对考试麻木了。我是那种KIASU的人，不管怎样也要把考卷做完，呵呵，对不对我就不知道了。每次考前也会看看notes，期望机会主义的撞上几道题，考完试倒是一言不发就独自走出教室。不知道要说什么，也不知道更谁说。假期回来，觉得身边的人越来越陌生。并不是别人要远离我，却是觉得自己故意在给自己找麻烦，谁知道呢。

总而言之，是越来越不想学了。

晚上八点一过，一堆人挤在一个房间里，说是复习，其实是一顿叫嚷‘死啦’，‘怎么办呢’这样的话。

Dying of BT

i thought i can mug my physcis tml after gp. so... i checked my time table... gp ends at 1145, physics starts at 1300... bleah...

my physics shall go with wind.

this shall be the most unprepared test i've ever sat for... hehe.

anyway... 10% only...

btw by brain is running out of gp idears, at this point of time... i hope they can give a topic about sports, esp nba or euro 2004.... haix

i'm playing god...

Horrible

This is HORRIBLE.

If u wanna ask me wat the block test subject is on the first day. My answer now:

I DoN't KnOw.

Hehe...

France's out this morning...

Portugal wins!!!

Portugal wins!!! so exciting!!! owen gave england a goal at 3th minute. waited 80 min for postiga to equilise it... rui costa hit a long shot in 20th minute overtime... but it's the 'silver goal' system this time... so england got another chance and equilised 5 minutes later by lampard.

penalty shootout. beckham missed the penalty again... hehe... but then rui costa missed the third. until the seventh round, ricardo saved Vassell's pentaly, and himself made the last penalty kick!!!

one hour to breakfast time. i'm not going to sleep.

孤单北半球

[孤单北半球]

remeber.... italy... blue infantry

前一刻，卡萨诺还在飞翔

布冯挥拳庆祝

他们以为自己已经出线


可庆祝只持续了几秒钟

下一刻，却是哭泣

就这样结束了？

用球衣擦拭着泪水

蓝色的忧郁王子

无言的结局

谁也不是胜利者

球场上九大下流动作

tonight, netherlands

italy's eliminated from euro 2004... 卡萨诺伤停补时进了反超的一球，冲向了教练席，得到多却是瑞典丹麦2-2平的消息，当即到底仰面痛哭。

意大利成了欧锦赛历史上第一支没有输球却被淘汰的球队。

只希望今天晚上荷兰会创造奇迹。捷克一定要痛宰德国。

sth should be censored

i wish to post some 'coloured jokes' here...

作弊就像是服用伟哥,也许你自认为非常强悍,可是若你
不嗑这个你永远无法让所有人满意.
重修就像计划外怀胎,你在*作的时候再小心翼翼,也
必须要有心理准备直面面对这种惨淡的失败.

四级证书就像是杰士邦保险套,只在找工作的时候拿出
用,之后没人愿意把它捡起来洗干净再用第二次.

网恋就像是梦遗,人人都认为它会来,但没人知道它到底
么时候来.55岁以上或者有前列腺炎病史者可以略过不看.

师生恋就像月经来潮,虽然不是不光彩的事情,但在对别
人讲述的时候,人人都遮遮掩掩装作羞于启齿.

上课就像和你老婆做爱,虽然你未必情愿,但她大约每个
月会点名要求你来上一次.

逃课就像习惯性自慰,明明知道太过频繁会伤身体,但你
仍然无法抗拒那一刻的快感.

开学就像接客,你还没有休息够,新一批的客人就又来打扰你了.

毕业就像生产,不管你认为你们在计划怀孕的时候它会多么
的畸形,但再畸形它也在10个月或者4年后瓜熟蒂落.

辅导员就像是阴毛,这不是什么问题,但有它存在的时候你总
有摩擦,并且因此感到有些不爽.

后期集团也像保险套,它让你感到很不舒服,人人都希望抛弃
它,但它的宣传广告上则宣称这个贵而不惠的东西会带给你多少
多少的好处.

大学生活这四年,你就像被强奸了四年.更要命的是你根本无
力反抗.所以你还是干脆闭上眼睛,好好享受罢......

与你到永久

[与你到永久]

i'm back

i got fed up with diaryland server. always telling me the 99% thingy... it doesn't feel good when u wanna write sth and u have to keep refreshing the page for dunno how many times.

nvm... seems heaven's against me recently. wellz. i think it's more because i 自作自受。 i belong to the few unfortunate percent to get lower score for sat when sitting for the second time... wellz... i can tolerate if verbal drags me down... but it was maths.... bleh...

and italy got a hard time in euro 2004... haix... hope they won't be sent back only after 3 matches.

i know i'm at a crucial point of time... but at this very time... i've lost my faith... i choose to escape... that very hope of mine was aroused again: let me fall asleep some day and never wake up...

i hope i can feel pain. feel anger. feel antagonism. feel hostility. feel hatred. but i can't. neither can i feel love, happiness, sense of achievement.

i've been depriving myself of feelings. let it be true feelings or hypocritic remarks. i have neither. my brain is empty, and it resists letting anything in or anything out.

在城里的人想出去，在城外的人想进来

---《围城》，钱钟书

i've always been asking for too much. again. i'm asking for hope. asking for feelings...

again...

城里的月光把梦照亮，请温暖他心房；
看透了人间聚散，能不能有点快乐片断？？？

nba & soccer

diaryland's screwed up again... so i have to use there...

anyway... my last few entries were all about nba finals... tml shall be the fifth game. hope detroit pistons can win the champion at home.

meanwhile european soccer championship is going on. zidane helped france to turn the table against england in the last 3 minutes of the game. italy is still warming up very slowly, held 0-0 with denmark. tonight, netherlands against germany... another exciting game, but at 2:45... i don't think i'll be able to wake up at that time.

i don't think the guys shall do well in the block test 2, with so many distractions in june holidays. at least i haven't started studying.... bad sign... my legs and arms are aching from daily basketball activities... we played full court until we ran out of stamina and we changed to half court to exhaust the rest.

maybe by the same logic we shall not do again in prelim coz it's after the olympics... haix...

drank, not drunk

i didn't feel anything for sat. maybe i can get lower score than the first time round... bleh... but finally i know wat 'wtf' means... hehe, man guess i'm just too slow...


drank with huajia and old cat. listening to their music and singing, quite impressed. looked at some old photos of our class.


first one is taken right after the second intakers came in. everyone's smiling so radiantly.


the second one is taken at the end of the year with john ng. everyone stones.


and now, looking at the ct photo, everyone seems so demure.


maybe i should not count in the ct photo. but anyway, seeing our class just disintegrate bit by bit.


just look at the class webpage. who still gossip there?


我们就这样，各自奔天涯？

thursday

nothing much to say. diaryland is down. so use here.

good luck for my sat.

played basketball in the morning. not that bad.