感动

李白乘舟将欲行，
忽闻岸上踏歌声。
桃花潭水深千尺，
不及汪伦送我情。

on the eve of flying back

so, i'm going back tomorrow morning. my sentiment is just ambivalent. how time flies. in a twinkling of an eye four years have passed and i've finished my first package of education in singapore. Os and As, 4G and 34. we gather, and we fly away.

given the situation now, i cannot be assured, and i cannot assure any people. at this point of time happiness seems to be transient adn ephemeral; even when i'm enjoying i can feel the stress and pressure. uk and us, it's so far yet so near.

it's just life. when i become used to it, everything's gonna seem just normal.

watched 'forrest gump' on dvd this afternoon. i really admire him. confident, courageous, always believe in what he is doing.

tom hanks is really a great actor.

11.27

i got insomnia before the s-paper day. ironically i was not worrying about the s-papers; i was too excited thinking of the exams over soon.

so, the s-papers. they are not hard. i did't do too bad. but i could have done better. problem in choice of questions. i was left with about 20 minutes for checking for both papers, and using that time i always found another question in the papers easier than the one i had chosen. well, maybe i had just 'smoked' for one question for physcis and chem each.

i guess the walk from school to hostel would be my last of such trips. but anyway, apparently i was not that happy or excited after all, contrary to my insomnia the previous night.

maybe it's because i was sick by then. thanks to the air-con in a203. i caught a cold i think. well i think i had a fever yesterday evening. i didn't bother to dig out the thermometer from nowhere. i could feel my forehead and throat burning, while my limbs go cold. well, i sank almost 5 litres of water along the way and slept for 12+ hours. i recovered pretty fast... luckily. in the afternoon i was able to play basketball, though my stamina was not there obviously... and it was full court...

maybe it's because of the university applications. basically i get 3 sets of different essays to write, and i have barely started. i wanted to post them to us before i leave singapore. (yups i've got my air ticket, dec 1st) but it seems just impossible. i have only tomorrow left. the rest of the days to class chalet.

i'm not bringing my luggage to chalet. the check out process would be more complicated. and i may not be able to finish packing by tomorrow...

haix, the flight is from chinese eastern. on my birthday a plane from chinese eastern airlines crashed in china and 55 died... so my mum's a bit worried now.

18h30min

i'm actually studying... hehe, before this last day of A-levels. ok, shan shi shan zhong, since i studied for gp for the day before that...

three days

as i was reading chi square, i dozed off. in my dream i was doing chem s. five minutes to five, nov 26th. though mocked by the paper, i could hardly feel any disappointment. five minutes later the f****** A-level will be over!!!

and i woke up, and had to face the reality: three days.....

crash

my birthday, and a plane crashed in china. 55 died.....

ordinary day

every time i looked at my hp screen today, i received new msg on my birthday... haha. happy.

but it's just an ordinary day.

just a day,
just an ordinary day.
just tryin' to get by...

last day of 18

my 18th year of life only has one hour and ten minutes left.

later, i'm going to switch off my com and handphone and go to bed. and sleep... ZZZZZ...

i'm entering my last year of teenage.... reluctantly and hopefully

by the way, some one has already said ‘happy birthday’to me... haha, so happy. a long time friend. the kind of friend that u know ur friendship will go forever, and u know most probably u think the same way, being the same kind of people.

hero - enrique iglesias

would you dance
if i asked you to dance?
would you run
and never look back?
would you cry
if you saw me crying?
and would you save my soul, tonight?
would you tremble
if i touched your lips?
would you laugh?
oh please tell me this.
now would you die
for the one you loved?
hold me in your arms, tonight.
i can be your hero, baby.
i can kiss away the pain.
i will stand by you forever.
you can take my breath away.

would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
am i in too deep?
have i lost my mind?
i don't care...
you're here tonight.
i can be your hero, baby.
i can kiss away the pain.
i will stand by you forever.
you can take my breath away.
oh, i just want to hold you.
i just want to hold you.
oh...yeah
am i in too deep?
i can be your hero.
i can kiss away the pain.

忘了哭

前一步已末路
这一步过分未知数
再一步就决定胜负
却平白无故退出
当你被他抱住该学会懂得为他哭
把痛苦交给我闭幕领悟另一种幸福
我们一路都忘了哭
忘了怎么爱上彼此的糊涂
没有人会懂得帮助直到所有于事无补
爱怎么开始都像要结束
我们一路都忘了哭
忘了到对方的世界里住
明知感情不断建筑都未付出半个项目
错误的泪不想哭却硬要留住

旋木

拥有华丽的外表和绚烂的灯光
我是匹旋转木马身在这天堂
只为了满足孩子的梦想
爬到我背上就带你去翱翔

我忘了只能原地奔跑的那忧伤
我也忘了自己是永远被锁上
不管我能够陪你有多长
至少能让你幻想与我飞翔

奔驰的木马
让你忘了伤
在这一个供应欢笑的天堂
看著他们的羡慕眼光
不需放我在心上

旋转的木马
没有翅膀
但却能够带著你到处飞翔
音乐停下来
你将离场
我也只能这样

seven days...... and bullshits

For the most part, the exams were about as hard as an 80-year-old penis.

well, i don't play guitar and i'm not interested in Halo 2, but i like kenny's words here. it reminded me of a chinese synonym for it, “被太监强奸”，or, translated literally, “raped by an eunuch”. be it sexist. be it vulgarities. normal words just cannot express the feelings behind these stuff. 就是有一种快感。

seven days. seven days later at this time, the last battle will be fought and finished.

oh... seven days... ... ... ... r u scared of that?

the sec 4s finished their Os today. chemistry. i heard there's a boy went for a streaking in chinese high field. hehe... ... ...

oh, the dots don't mean i'm considering doing it myself.

my As end with chem, too.

5.5-1-5.5, 12 hours next week.

i just hope this rape by an enunch can be finished as soon as possible. u, the enunch, cannot do much things without ur balls (or is it a fashion to say LPs), so, don't ever try to piss on me.....

eight days...

another 2 papers down today... tml morning i will be sitting in the vip room for fm.... hehe... i just hope the exams can be soon finished... it's just torturing. it's not testing ur knowledge; it's testing ur patience.

默哀

today is nov 13th. exactly six years ago, i started my first, official crush. i don't think i can call any of my past experiences 'relationships' (this notion actually terrified me at first and i refused to accept it... well... sounds too irresponsible for a 'man'... but well... i don't think after all i had done anything significant.)

six years ago, i never thought it would last for so long.

为我第一次感情上的冲动,默哀一分钟.

mr brown

just found out today that mr brown is a hc alumni... hehe

psychological age test

have ur psychological age estimated here

鉴定结果
您的心理年龄27岁

与您实际年龄差9岁

幼稚度44％

成熟度50％

老化度28％

happy pocky day

1111，今天是光棍节。哈哈...............

exams

没有考试的时候，每天8点20准时醒来，洗完脸刷好牙正好错过早饭。打开冰箱，一杯橙汁，6个oreo，权当早饭吧。只是给胃打了个借条。刚到十一点，肚子就开始催债了，抵赖抵赖，12点的时候准时吃饭，心满意足，上楼睡了一觉，继续喊恶。真不是时候，四点半，吃一点晚饭就没法好好吃，不吃又饿的难受。......

没什么好消息，坏消息有。我的监护人去取消一位学长在他名下的线，把号码弄错了，取消了我的线。不知道能不能拿回来。那不回来我就去买starhub的prepaid了，就是要告诉所有人我换号码了。真麻烦。

生活还是一样的无趣。

departure

moe air ticket: dec 1

choices and destiny

Today's GP compre was about choices and destiny. Just now i took a look at this year's 华岗文学, the first essay is also on choices and destiny. And i think it's a much better essay than the two passages we had for compre today. and surprisingly it's written by a sec one... hehe, just wanna type it out.

我们别无选择
赵嘉宁 一丁

一条大路无论多么笔直，终难免有岔路。漫漫的人生路上，我们也同样面临过各种各样的抉择。有些选择是一生一世，终生无悔的；而有些却是懊悔一生，追悔莫及。

有一些选择是对的，有些是错的，也有一些是你根本不应该去作出的选择。面对人生，每个人都有着不同的选择，平民有平民的选择，伟人有伟人的选择。不同的人有着不同的选择方式：有些人选择靠占卦，去庙里抽签；有些人选择则靠人云亦云，人家说什么他就做什么。前者的方法，我觉得泰国迷信，相信老天会预知未来会发生的事情的好与坏，难道事情真的又如签上所写得不成？后者的方法，因觉得身旁没有比人给予你意见，自己就束手无策想不出办法来。我认为他们自己得有自己的主见与观点，自己的命运要自己来掌握，自己去改变它。

路，还是要自己走的。

面对人生的一次次选择，我们应始终保持一种纯洁高尚的心境，一种炽热温暖的心灵及一种坚毅不屈的决心。

是啊！在我们的生活中，常常会遇到这样或那样的选择，有些选择你可以改变；有些选择却只能选一次，无法悔改。往往在这个时候，我们所要做的，是心灵的选择。

心灵好比一扇窗子，打开它，释放自己，你会飞向更广、更辽阔的地方；关上它，封闭自己，你会永远缩在一个狭小的空间里。打开窗子，你可能会被外面的清新空气所净化，也可能会被那污浊的气息所伤害，而龟缩在那狭小的空间中，你却能够保持不受外界的干扰与伤害。于是，为了不是自己受到伤害，为了维护自己的利益，不仅你、我，大多数的人都不是这样的吗？于是，在选择中他们毫不犹豫地选择了自己的利益，选择了可是自己获得最大利益的一方，甚至不惜牺牲别人。

然而，人活着的价值，不仅仅在于他获得了多少的利益，而在于他的追求，他对社会的贡献和影响。

“生，我所欲也；义，亦我所欲也，二者不可得兼，舍身取义者也。”几千年前的孟子在面对心灵的选择时，毅然发出了舍身取义的呐喊，是心灵的选择激发了先哲思想的火花，这将是一条亘古不变的古训。

当年项羽在亥下兵，,四面楚歌，演出了霸王别姬的悲剧。后来项羽突围到乌江，虽然有渡船，他却毫不犹豫的选择不要渡河。项羽如果为刘邦所杀，或是他失败后再渡江，都不如临江自刎这样留给历史永远的回味。项羽自感无颜见江东父老，面对生的希望却举起了一把自刎的剑，唱出了“力拔山兮气盖世，时不利兮骓不逝！骓不逝兮可奈何，虞兮虞兮奈若何！”项羽最终的选择是多么的震撼与悲壮！

“风萧萧兮易水寒，壮士一去兮不复还！”荆轲刺秦王的故事想必大家都听说过。当时秦王野心勃勃，想要并吞六国，一统江山。燕国太子丹，由于曾被秦王扣留，受到污辱，非常愤怒，立志要报仇雪恨。卫国一位名叫荆轲的壮士，因秦国并吞了他的国家，一心想要卫国报仇，加上太子丹对他有恩，便毫不犹豫地答应他去刺杀秦王。
离别的早上，秋风呼呼地吹，好似在吹奏一首凄寒的曲子。易水河边，只能听见涓涓的河水在流，除此以外，什么声音也听不到，一片寒意。来送行的人都知道，荆轲这次到秦国去，无论成功与否，都不会活着回来。即使最终的结果已经非常明确，可是荆轲还是选择了这条通往秦国的路，这条一去就永远不会回来的路，宁可死。

最终的结果并不是人们想象中的那么美好：秦王被刺死，荆轲壮烈牺牲......不，不是的，荆轲是壮烈牺牲了，可是他却没有成功的杀死秦王嬴政，无法为卫国报仇。荆轲虽然无法杀死秦王，但是他那决绝，壮烈和高尚的精神，将会永远鼓舞着大家去抛弃苟且偷安的日子，永远憧憬着圣洁和高尚的人生目标，尽量为人类和世界的买进做出自己的贡献。荆轲，我要高声赞美你！

荆轲的选择是正确的，不是吗？

“选择，不需要太多的理由，然而却需要必不可少的勇气。”这是我在荆轲身上总结的一句话。

白云选择蓝天，海鸥选择大海，它们的选择是和谐与自然的。如果有人让我在蓝天和大海之间选择其中义者的话，我会干脆双眼一笔，用不选择来逃避。因为两者都是我最向往，最爱慕的地方。但是当我以为可以轻松地出口长气的时候，最终却发现不选择也是选择，人生往往就是这么矛盾，有时它让人无法选择，有时也让人无法不选择！是我们无所适从。

有诗道：
侠客选择了一诺千金的豪情，
于是才奏出了易水送别之歌。
壮士选择了战死沙场的壮烈，
于是才奏出了慷慨救国之歌。
情人选择了海誓山盟的执著，
于是才奏出了化蝶共舞之歌......